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by yours truly
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I wake up and do the same routine everyday. I’d go to class, and do everything I have to before I head to work. I eat whenever I have time, or at least I’d really shrink in to find time for me to eat. I walk home exhausted, sometimes not straight home but to some place else just to free my mind. Then once I get home I’d probably fall asleep in just a snap. 

This is how I am today and I just can’t stop thinking about how simpler things were before. It’s odd how my life turned out to be so different. I mean, of course this is as it is expected because, duh, it’s college life. But everything just seems so empty no matter how happy I become. It’s frustrating how I’m contented with simply making the people around me, happy and make them laugh their asses off even if I feel so damn empty inside of me. And I miss everyone back home, and I want to hang out with them like we all used to or maybe just catch up with each other. Or talk. I have no one to talk to here. I mean, I do but I don’t really talk about the things I would want to talk about. That’s just complicated. And my life is just complicated. As fucked up as I am, this is what gets me through everyday. Embracing the perks of living alone.. I’m used to it, and I’m okay with it but sometimes it gets a little lonely.

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"Don’t judge me for my choices when you don’t understand my reasons."

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"Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get up inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness so a simple phrase like ‘Maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘How very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working it’s way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love."
The Kindly Ones (Neil Gaiman)

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A Potato Update

WARNING: This is one long blog-post *wink

So hello, summer? Not much of a summer for me, though. I’m taking up summer classes here in Baguio and I’ll do whatever it takes to be able to get that English1 class. I’ll camp out in school and I’m not kidding. I’m working my ass out this summer, alone in this city because I’ll be the one paying my dues. Wow, 17 and independent? For a while. I can do this. So before looking forward to all of that, let’s have a little update, shall we?

2014 gives its impression on being a fun-tastic-yet-really-stressful year. I’m literally a zombie in most days that have passed.

January was awesome but it was a hell-yeah month because of all the preparations, and sponsorship letters and everything we had to do for the anniversary of our organization. Not to mention, we are only 7 people (who actually do something) planning an event for 100-200 people. Imagine every night that I had only 4 hours of sleep, every night that we walked and talked our asses out to make it a great one. Either way, it was really successful and I’m very happy of the whole flow of the event.. and I sang my throat out. Whoo-hoooooo!!

February was the month of pain. Nope, not because of Valentines my darlings. Yeah, several awesome parties happened but in the middle of this month I got really sick and spent 3 nights in the hospital, and 5 days of home care at Julius’ house with his fellow shadows. I have never really felt that kind of pain and weirdness all over my body and I’m really glad I’m okay now, even if it lasted 3weeks. Yep, ‘till the first week of March, I was sick.

Speaking of March, it’s actually the main update here. March: My Birthday Month-slash-hell-week-slash-zombie-faces-and-stressed-out-bitch-yet-still-one-hell-of-a-month!!!! Highlights highlights!

On 030114, it was ! I was still quite sick yet I managed to host the event with the help of my partner, KJ. Well actually partnersss, cus it was a cuh-razy night. How could I forget how many times I sneaked in a drink wee-hee!! So the org wore green, because the theme is high-five which actually signifies weed. Lol. Pictures aren’t posted yet but I do have a picture of myself: 

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I look weird I know but I’m pretty sure this will be the most decent picture I have since that night was a wild one. Hurray!

030714: Another highlight, UPIAN IDOL SEASON 7!! I met awesome people and this is how Dan and I got really close. Uhm, so as you know that weekend I was still sick so I was’t really expecting to win, hell I didn’t even know why I joined but maybe I was really meant to be there so I could meet all of them! And I felt really good because, just being able to sing in a crowd that sings back to you, that’s the dream. The feels. The song. With so much feels. And the aura of the stage and everything. Arghhhh just so unforgettable and was a dream come true. Wehh. Hihihi. We’re still waiting for SAIKU to post our pictures but I do have a screen shot of my performance:

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After everything, well Dan and I were really clingy and so were the others, although it’s just always the four of us, Justine, Pia and Dan. It’s weird because I’m the freshman, Dan’s the sophomore, Justine is the junior and Pia is the senior and..it kinda looks the other way around. I look like a senior. Okay fine. Anyway here’s some of our pictures!

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And more later!!

So let’s get to the intense part.. HELL WEEK!!!!!! You have no idea how much coffee I had for the last two weeks of March just to get everything done. Even on my birthday, I was bummed with papers and exams, but we’ll get to my birthday later. So yeah I spent my nights editing a magazine and trying to squeeze creative juices the best way I can to write all of my papers. Stay awake to study for my exams which happened everyday, consecutively. Fuck. Anyway I’m just really happy that I did it. And I got through my first year in UPB! So cheers to more zombie days in UPB! 

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Say hello to Philo1-D with the great Sir Fritz!

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Aren’t we cute together? Wehehehe hi sir!

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And Comm100-G with the beautiful Maám Shine! All my efforts on this subject, and everything ughh I srsly did everything and uhm say hello to my groupmates right here. From advertising to our magazine launch. All of those sleepless nights, last day groupie! Yay!

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Your beautiful CEO, Reyzel Miranda. (Weh) HAHAHAHAHHA

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Plus your web and layout designer!! (Kayanin niyo please hahaha yay) 

So yeah basically the other subjects were plain stress, like Math11 and Histo1 and Psych101. Yeah ask a comm student like me why I have Math11 and Psych101 and be confused in which college do I really belong in lol. I just really feel relieved that I got through with all of these and my major, Comm100 was a blast. Yay!

So now let’s talk about my.. BIRTHDAY 032214!! I slept early cus I have an exam the next day and I was supposed to wear a dress because my roommates asked for it again, srsly I have been wearing dressing often the past few days for formality sake and shit and not for a random day. Anyway it was a hassle so I thought nope, sorry. And this was me after my exam:

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I spent my birthday with Dan!!! And Pia and Justine. Wehehehe. We met at SM and had dinner, strolled around Session and laughed a loooooot and went to Trillionaire’s to have a blast of games and drinks and laughs again and we told horror stories and it was really creepy and Dan made me cry haha fuck anyway it was fun!! Super fun specially when most of the time it’s just me and Dan who laughs too much because we got each other a little too much that sometimes they can’t relate no more. 

Here’s the insta vid from that day: http://instagram.com/p/l2b_utxZ4o/ take note that, the night was just begining then hahaha then I don’t have the pictures, Dan has them. Ask him. Jk

At about 12AM, I had to leave and so we all went home, owait I didn’t. I went to Spade to celebrate with my blocmates! Yay! It was kind of our sem-ender. Can I just mention that Moore and I saw a shooting star? Shit it was so awesome cus it was like a fireball that just passed by while we were looking at the sky and it was soo near like it was going to explode but then it disappeared. Lol. Okay. Well, basically I had a little too much to drink And the thing you do when I’m drunk is to keep my phone away from me. Srsly. Ugh. Anyway ‘twas a blast and I woke up with a serious headache, a sign of how awesome the night was. Weh. Hello from us!!

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The week after my birthday was the finals week and I had to take Math11. So yeah. And then ‘twas also a busy week of packing, arranging things and yup, moving to another place! I got really stressed realizing just how much clothes and stuff and shoes and books I had like how did I reach Baguio with this much stuff?!

Anyway, one random day.. 032514: I was still laying around, not even took a shower yet and just watching HIMYM (with a lot of feels because it’s about to end) when someone texted me and then outside my door was that person and these:

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And said.. “Happy Birthday! Mi-nove ko yung birthday mo eh. Ngayon ka pa lang talaga mag-17.” So many tears!! Very iyak!! Much feels!! :’(

The next day, 032614, I was a guest at an upperclassmen class (what?!). I actually almost forgot the day before. The subject was BC101 (Broadcasting 101) and they had these TV show that aired for an hour, and we were at a studio and it was sooooo cool and just damn I want this kind of life you know being in a set and doing all of those that they do ugh I can’t wait to take BC101 and everything else and yeah okay I love my course hahahaha!! So at the show, I was an artist. Showbiz thing lol. And I sang for them and they interviewed me (kuno) and it was really fun and the segments were amazing because it was summer-themed and I sang summer paradise and ughh it was just a blast of an experience for a freshman like me. So here am I:

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And.. since Dan and I are kind of too attached..

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Actually we have more photos than you think hahaha anyway so we actually had another movie marathon before Pia moved out of Baguio last 032714, we watched horror films and screamed all throughout the night. Well we were the only ones at that house. We fell asleep at about 3am, but Pia was still awake because she was doing her paper. Yes, Pia is graduating! So, went home in the morning and had halo-halo! Yay and then the night of 032814, a unplanned dinner with Kuya Jhapes, Kuya (omg what his name again?) and Kuya Dan! Wow Kuya Dan? We pigged-out at Mang Inasal. After that, Dan and I roamed around Baguio City hahaha srsly from 9pm-4am we were walking around from place to place and just being weirdos! ‘Twas sort of our sem-ender. Awwww<3 So yeah then our last stop was 7eleven where we heard Papa Jack again lol and we went home to their house to watch a movie but then we fell asleep. Yay for this day!!

I went home to Pampanga that afternoon, the sweetest clingy Dan helped me pack more of my stuff and accompanied me to the terminal. Waited an hour for a ride and ate while we waited then I arrived at Pampanga at 9pm. Yes. I went home just to lessen all my stuffs back in Baguio. Sunday, I was out with my family and I miss them so much.

And the last day of March is a day well spent with Derick! We had breakfast at Mcdonald’s and fooled around places to places and I missed him so much. I’d tell you how he forgot my birthday, but actually he didn’t, he was confined and shit and I was really worried so yeah atleast he’s fine now and yeah I really missed him!

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We’re weirdos 5evurrrrrr!! Hi-hi-hi

At about 5pm, Kyl and I met at Mcdonald’s (I was there again) and we waited for Kye and Chedy! Wow Chedy is here after ashdfgalskjdahslkdjh years! We missed Ate Tin, though. Wow Tumblr Barkada? Chos. We ate at KingKong and updated with each other’s lives (naks) and I missed this people! It’s really been a long time. Then we went to 7eleven to just chill and tambay. Yay. ‘Twas a tiring day for me but it was fun!

That’s all for now, I’ll be back in Baguio tomorrow. And my summer is going to be a busy one so, good luck to me and have an amazing summer you guys!! xx

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"Fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you. who understands you even in the madness; someone who helps you, and guides you, someone who is your support, your hope. fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight. Fall in love with someone who misses you and wants to be with you. Do not fall in love only with a body or with a face; or with the idea of being in love"

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UPPL Pusoy’s Full House: A Big Fat Awesome House Party

One hell of a night. HAHAHA this was the night before I went home to Pampanga with a hangover. I was so nervous with what pictures were to be posted but anyway, here they are. Hands down to SAIKU because the pictures were crazy awesome! Still a hell of a night though *wink wink

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Shameless selfie cus I&#8217;m a free bitch baby!! So yeah my 2nd sem is finally over wee-hoooooooooooo!! I’ll be blogging about the month of March cus loads and loads of stuff happened he-he-he okay so update soon and hello hello summer!! xx

Shameless selfie cus I’m a free bitch baby!! So yeah my 2nd sem is finally over wee-hoooooooooooo!! I’ll be blogging about the month of March cus loads and loads of stuff happened he-he-he okay so update soon and hello hello summer!! xx

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I don’t know what I feel

But I know how happy I become when I see you. We talk a little too much, and laugh a little too loud. We cling on to each other in a weird way because we obviously love each other’s company. I still don’t know what I, but I do know that you make me very happy. And that you brighten up my darkest days. I love the fact that I always make you laugh, and your laughter is just plain crazy beautiful. You are that one person, who make me forget all the bad things for a while. I won’t need a cigarette, or a rolled up paper, or shots of alcohol. Knowing that you’re there is enough. Somehow these days, I’ve been just fine. Your hugs everyday are the reason I’m not as frozen as I was before. I don’t understand what this is, but I’m not ready to figure it all out.

What you said this morning was a bomb that I’m not sure caused a disaster or a miracle in me. I just really don’t know what to feel. We stay up ‘till 3am in the roads finding someplace else to stay, or just laying down watching our favorite movies we know every single line to, or singing the songs we sing differently, watch all those videos that make us laugh really hard, or cook dinner like we’re chefs and make tuna and egg a gourmet meal, or just talk about whatever and do whatever ‘till we get tired and just pass out.

So I really don’t know what I feel, now that you told me everything you do. 

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Friends, the thing you do when I’m drunk is to keep my phone away from me.

ASDFGAHJSKJHAFGHSJKJ OKAY? THANK YOU.

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Anonymous asked: Hoy chikababes gandits! Kaya mo yan! Magsasaya tayo pagkatapos ng finals ;) -stalker mo

Punyeta kay ju mo ba galing blog ko enebey -.- Oo naman ako pa huhu ge rak tayo hahahahahahahaha pakyu

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Anonymous asked: Hi Reyzel. Hindi dapat kita inii-stalk, pero gusto ko lang sabihin na gusto kita. Gustong gusto. Lalo lang lumala pagkagusto ko sayo nung kumanta ka nung Friday. Nalaman ko lang tong tumblr mo sa isang batchmate ko, at di ko na ito pinost sa SPF dahil gusto ko sayo ko mismo sasabihin. Korni ko na yata pero ang astig mo at lagi kitang inaabangang makasabay pauwe kahit tinatarayan mo lang ako. Shot ulet ha! (Siguro kilala mo nako) ;)

Wait what are you who I think you are marunong ka pala magdrama charing wtf get out of my blog hahahahahahaha sige lang basta libre lol

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oh those lovely mornings

oh those lovely mornings

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